My Emotional Spectrum

Yes, Hermione. I have the emotional range of a teaspoon. In fact, my emotional spectrum consists of five different emotions: curious, satisfied, indifferent, angry, and enraged.

Curious. 
My favorite emotion. Its when I write posts, ponder other emotions such as "love", read up on some interesting things that caught my attention, and drink a lot of tea. :D



Satisfied.
This is the normal-people equivalent of "happy". It includes laughing. I love to laugh. :3



Indifferent.
This is my most common emotion. Its when I'm doing homework, going on facebook, etc. When I'm in this phase, I shoulder-shrug a lot, or raise my eyebrows a lot. I'm not easily phased, I'm usually just like, "meh" or "cool story brah".



Angry.
Tight-lipped, frowning. This is when I usually get very defensive. I argue a lot and lash out with words. If I'm at this stage because of something a person is saying or doing, I'll usually get up and walk away because believe it or not, I don't like being angry. If I'm at this stage because of an event (traffic that makes me late for something important, etc), I tend to get a little watery-eyed and my throat feels tight. I guess its because its out of my hands, and I hate feeling helpless. So I just get angry instead of succumbing to my helplessness.



Hurt.
Yeah, I know I didn't name this as one of the five emotions on my spectrum, but I didn't feel like it deserved that much acknowledgement. It's a short area, and most of the time I pass right over it, straight from "Angry" to "Enraged". In the occasional circumstance that I do end up in the "Hurt" phase, I do what a girl does best: I try not to cry. You know what bothers me? When I'm in this phase, people will be all, "Oh wow, Nehal, are you okay? What happened? Oh my God, are you crying?? You look like you're crying. Do you want to talk about it?" Please, please, please. If I appear to be on the verge of tears, don't ask me these stupid questions. Just hug me, dammit.



Enraged.
It's a short trip from "angry" to "enraged". All it takes is for just one tiny little action/ word to tip the scale. For some reason, I get very quite during this phase. I guess it’s the calm before the storm, and when dealing with a storm, the best thing to do is just wait it out. MOST of the time, I go to my room, close my door, and I just lay on my bed in fetal position and I wait for it to pass. Depending on how enraged I am, it may take something from 15 minutes to a few hours. If I can't seclude myself, I'll try to go outside or something; this phase is quite suffocating. If I'm already outside and enraged, I'm not a pretty person. I get very cold and I say stuff I end up regretting. Alhamdulilah, I haven't been "enraged" in a while; lately I've been stopping short at "hurt".